Friday, February 17, 2017

The Cusp Of Love


I held that cup tight and cautiously, as if it's not the cup
But our relation that I was holding on to.
You were engrossed in sorting the clothes.
'Hey, coffee for you.'
You smiled, I smiled.
'It's good,' you said.
'I think I know your tastes better now.' I pronounced with some self adulation.

You look at me with amazement and obliviousness at the same time.
I knew in that very moment that our love is still incomplete.
I still cannot say you're the one because in you I see a split 
The you that I know and the you that I don't know.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

The Silent Transformation


He looks at me with a smile and I smile back.
He kisses my head and says you've the most beautiful smile.
I smile a little wider and then curb it guiltily.
I've heard this before, I've believed this before.
He wants me to be happy and I'm happy with him.

But you know that...
There is no eye that sees me the way you did
Neither a heart that feels my heart like you did.
May be I'm no more the me in love.
I've transformed with time but that feeling hasn't.

Monday, January 30, 2017

The 1484 days since...


My heart raced a million miles in those few seconds
It's been years since that unceremonious goodbye
And there you were looking as beautiful as ever.
The dinner. The goodbye.
I stayed there for a moment, I let the grief shroud my soul,
I let the cloud burst occur in my eyes.
Shattered I returned to that place which took you away from me
Only to realize that I've been robbed of my memories
The one I needed to console my heart
Just sneaked into my diaries and
Tore all my musings, my conversations with you.
I was not entitled to love and now
I'm not entitled to express my pain either.
I rest in dark sadness tonight and
Hope that the dreamer meets his dream.

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

The Antidote To Happiness

She was silently staring at the horizon, in a trance, wistfully thinking.
I placed the coffee in front of her and asked, 'what are you thinking?'
She stared at me and I noticed her vacant eyes.
'Nothing', she said.

'Sometimes it's not the life that we live
But the life that we can't which
Is the reason of our heart's despair.'

Sunday, December 25, 2016

The Victims Of Love - 4

You don't understand love.
You experience it.
It's the experience that's eternal
Not love, sometimes...

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

The fable of the land and the sea

"You and I, the land and the sea."
"Land and sea, I don't understand"
"There are days when the sea is calm.
I'm content with just having you, there. 
I know you're in your own world still I'm calm."
"And."
"And, there are days when the sea is restless. 
I want you to reach my depths, explore me,
I desire you, I want you."
"Can't we just merge, become one."
"We can't, for you're the land and I'm the sea, 
and our coming together will mean destruction for our world."
"Why then, am I the land, and you're the sea? 
Why can't we both be sea, intermingling where the land ends, 
exploring each other's mystery? 
Why can't we be?"
"....."

(my answer might not be your's. you find your own answers of this one)

Friday, December 9, 2016

The Spell Of December

There was something very defining about you
You've painted your dreams with your chosen colors
You've that simple craziness that makes you unique
You've that innocuous mischievousness
You're like a snow covered mountain, glowing white
I reveled in your beauty, I know you, you are me.
Not the me existing here and now
Faded like the melting snow
Lapsed in time...

I'm waiting for the December snow again
But this time it isn't snowing
They say that the world has changed
And it's never gonna snow here again.

Monday, December 5, 2016

The Coffee Conversations

In between those hot sips of the dark brown liquid
And the fumes carrying the smell of the diffused beans
We've talked nonchalantly about today and tomorrow
We've talked about work and world, and silence followed.
There are still a few conversations that are left incomplete
I'm speaking loud in my heart, are you even listening...

Friday, December 2, 2016

That Forgotten Diary

While cleaning my closet, I caught hold of the box of memories.
The box of memories that enclosed the forgotten diary.
My hands trembled conveying not to unlid it,
Don't pick it, don't open it, then my heart sighed.
That forgotten diary -
The torn pages reminded me of everything I wrecked,
The blank ones reminded me of everything incomplete,
And there were still these one left, nether torn nor blank
Marred with tears, marred yet not destroyed like my soul.
Then I closed the diary, like I closed my heart
And consigned it to oblivion once again.

Thursday, December 1, 2016

The Aging Soldier

I've this uncanny nature
Of picking up the battles
That I know I can't win.
Battered, bruised
Refusing to concede
I fight these lonely battles
Battles that just don't recede.
Why is all I ask O God
Why this heart has to feel everything

Friday, November 11, 2016

The Darkness Rises

So the world has come to this
From the victory of hope
To the victory of despair
This is when it all ends
Our world
You and I.
And it's all because of me
Me.
Because I didn't fight.
I surrendered.

Friday, October 28, 2016

Lost In Translation

A silent yet icy breeze gushed from somewhere causing me to cuddle up and cover my exposed skull with a tam hat. The sound of the chirping birds which caressed my ears ebbed, time drifted unnoticed as the colour of the sky remained constant grey with clouds shrouding the winter sun. My thoughts wavered from youth to mid-life.

That embrace of love and innocence, that vow of together forever, that liberty of dreaming your dream, that curiosity to explore life – entirely traded with the conventional and established. 

A fine book lost its’ crux in translation. A magnificent story undone by the curse of poor rendition. 

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

The Impossible To Understand


How and when life turned into a beautiful suicide

Saturday, October 8, 2016

just another day without you

if you could define your pain
measure your loss
trust me
you've not lost something
that you cannot get over

Monday, October 3, 2016

A Nameless Existence


I express my heart through a mask
Fearing that you might love my reality
A reality... that does not exist

Monday, September 19, 2016

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

The Defined Destination


I'd wonder some times about reversing the time
Doing it all over again
Doing it differently
And I still end up at the same place.
You know what I mean
When all the paths lead to the same destination
This is destiny - your and mine.

Friday, August 19, 2016

A Slave To Existence

If I could, I would.
One day.
Tell a story.
Of Love.
Of a desolate heart.

Friday, August 5, 2016

The Deserted Spirit

No one could have destroyed me so profoundly that I did
And I am still not done

Friday, July 22, 2016

The Sight Of Ruins

Brick by brick
Piece by piece
You're demolishing me
It remains to be seen in time
What will be my faith
A beautiful ruin or a ruined beauty

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Let me heal my life

In the midst of the most beautiful mountains
There is my grave and
That's the only place where I'm alive

Friday, July 1, 2016

The Song Of That Time

That song
It lives with me
It wrenches my heart
Time and again
It rekindles
The betrayal, the guilt
The love, the heartbreak
The pain...
You are there in that song
even today...

Thursday, June 23, 2016

Be my heart

To feel my pain you've to be my heart
And then we can cry together

Saturday, June 11, 2016

The Freedom Of Imperfection


The glaring fault of the absolute truth is that it cannot be altered
And sometimes... the truth is very ugly.

Friday, June 3, 2016

The Faith In Stars

I knew that His existence is true 
When I had in my life someone as beautiful as you

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

The Price Of Life

Don't ever let anyone set a price on your life
You'll be rather rich when your life is priceless
Set a price and you're up for trade...

Thursday, May 19, 2016

The Frozen Tree

Not the ice that you poured over my body that took off my color
It's the silence that you directed towards my heart that shuddered my soul.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

The Rebirth of The Living

This time when happiness knocked
Incessant drops started filling my eyes.
I made a wish and my wish is realized.
I soaked in the pure joy of this moment
I looked up at the heavens and together we cried.
I've lived a life, I'm reborn and it's time to start another life.

Sunday, May 8, 2016

The End Of Prayer

 
Let not the pain of my wounded body and tormented soul be seen by the ones I love
For I cannot stand the agony of feeling my pain in their eyes...

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

The Burden Of Love

There are times when the burden and pain of being loved too much drowns me.
Burden and pain of being loved - do you understand...

Monday, April 11, 2016

The Vacuum Of Space

You are doing it all wrong
Totally, absolutely
You love the winds and live with me
In me you see the emptiness of space
And you don't know it yet but the nature abhors a vacuum...

Friday, April 1, 2016

The Stars Look Alike

This world will expect you to be a good child, a good sibling, a good parent, a good student, a good spouse, a good citizen, a good friend.... a good every one.
And you'll tell this world that it is too good to be.
You live for this world and eventually, you'll be a good every one.
But in your heart you'll miss that someone that you ever wanted to be.
So I'm telling this straight to you - either you live for everyone or you live for yourself.
And whatever you choose, live totally and completely.

Friday, March 11, 2016

The Destiny Of Your Dreams

May be you won't get it the first time
May be the first time was the test of your will
But if you won't give up and
You muster the courage to follow your dream
You'll have it 
For the time plays the illusionist role.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

The Perfect Imperfection

 
Love you truly.
I first fell in love with your imperfections
Then fell in love with your perfections.
Loved the good in you and loved the bad
Fell in love all over again.
And it never came as easy as it went.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

One Story At A Time

 
We all have to stop falling in love with memories...

Friday, December 18, 2015

Nothing But The Truth

 The truth of the past is nothing but a fiction today.

Thursday, December 17, 2015

The Cancer Of The Living

The suffering you bring to your soul by your bad thoughts and deeds
Far exceeds any pain from the ailment of your mortal being.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

The Love-Hate World

Love and hate are mighty sentiments
With a rather subtle difference
LOVE teaches you to sacrifice,
HATE teaches you to hurt...

People often bemuse their hate as love
Eventually hurting the ones they love

Friday, November 13, 2015

The I in I

For once in my life set me free
Let me chose my colors,
Let me chose my dreams,
No cages, no decree

Let me fight, let me burn,
No shelter, no liability
simply let me be
 

Thursday, October 29, 2015

The Dream Of Changing Times

 
The last time when I was there, I knew that place perfectly well
This time I was there and there was not a thing I recognized...
It's funny how things can change so quickly,

The other day I didn't even know myself anymore.

Friday, October 23, 2015

The Mystery Around Me


IF ONLY I'd know why you laid the hard path for the righteous
While the sinners have it so easy, I'll be no sinner in time...

Monday, October 19, 2015

That Morning, That Night


And one day all that we aspired for, all that we dreamed of, we'll get
But that will be just for a day
And in that moment, that day I'll live again because some battles never end 

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Forever & A Day

 
Time and again the distance that separates us, is the distance that brings us close

Friday, September 11, 2015

The Convenience Of Complexity


You feel like smoking out of that moment,
You wish you were not there, not the one
Still there you are living a nice and complicated life
And simplifying it would just mean messing it up

Sunday, September 6, 2015

The Worst Mistake I Make Everyday

I lie and that is bad but what is worse is that I lie to myself.

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

A Fool's Excuse


The things went wrong because I failed to make them right
Then I found destiny, luck, circumstances to my rescue
And I failed to make them right again...

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Chasing Wonderland


The world has two species of mankind...
One dream in the night and live in the reality
The other live their dreams to make it a reality
I'm the other one.

Friday, June 5, 2015

A Beautiful Story

She: Are you happy?
He: Are you happy?
She: I'm happy if you're happy.
He: I'm happy if you're happy.

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

A Path Of Its Own


She: Where are you?
He: I'm in midst of nowhere.
She: How did you reach there?
He: I waited too long before moving on...

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Beyond Reasons


He: I dreamed. I failed. I had my reasons.
She: Do you love me?
He: Yes, I do.
She: Will you fail?
He: I am beyond reasons now, an unreasonable self.