SOLILOQUIES ~ Beyond Few Words

It was a silly jape thrown his way that made him real upset, and I apologized again. Why should I, I thought, that's the real me, aye. I settled in the room with my head in my hands, a choking throat and misty eyes, as a stark realization hit me. Why... I didn't love him, I never did, it's not his fault it's just me and so I've to do everything I could to make up, to be his angel. Putting back that smile shrouding my guilt, I wiped those tears aside.

@Reuters I know nothing about their pain but still I feel it in my world.  Why do I've to?  Not to thank God, that it's not me out there NO But to PRAY to, give me the courage to help those out there....