SOLILOQUIES ~ Beyond Few Words

It was a silly jape thrown his way that made him real upset, and I apologized again. Why should I, I thought, that's the real me, aye. I settled in the room with my head in my hands, a choking throat and misty eyes, as a stark realization hit me. Why... I didn't love him, I never did, it's not his fault it's just me and so I've to do everything I could to make up, to be his angel. Putting back that smile shrouding my guilt, I wiped those tears aside.

@Reuters I know nothing about their pain but still I feel it in my world.  Why do I've to?  Not to thank God, that it's not me out there NO But to PRAY to, give me the courage to help those out there....

It was not in my words but in the way you read that made everything so poetic. It was not in me but the way you held that made the love so real.

I'd look at the mirror and ask myself Who am I... Am I a craven or am I brave Am I selfish or am I selfless Am I sinful or am I good Am I realist or am I a dreamer Am I even me or just your notion of me Oh I know who I am I'm everything that you want me to be But please it's too long now Please let me be . . ME

Those tears are not in my eyes, no more They swell in the sealed walls of my heart Till I'd find the moment to shed them all Not in pain but in bliss In bliss for the love that I behold...