SOLILOQUIES ~ Beyond Few Words

I'm restless today very restless. This deliberate distance that I did put between your world and mine should have fixed things, but no, it's not helping. Not a day goes by without thinking about you. And all of this is just inside me, I don't talk about you anymore. I pretend that I don't care, only if I cannot. But if that happens what will I become? I'm alone and I'm praying.. Oh but why this, why am I blabbering, I told you I'm alone. I'm alone since the day I stopped fighting for you, I'm alone since the day I left you. I hope you find love.

I've sacrificed and lost All for you And you ask for more, more and more Yet you don't see All that I did For finding your happiness But I lost    And I can't quit Caught in this loop Fall and rise Hurt and heal All by myself, all alone...

I read Your diary That Spoke of you Through words Filled with glee Filled with pain And then There were these pages Blank pages That troubled me the most

If I could tell you, I'd tell you To leave the past behind For nobody understands. If I could tell you, I'd tell you To bury the truth under the ground As it finds no acceptance. If I could tell you, I'd tell you That life is no fairy tale And love is.... If I could...

As the sun was setting slowly upon us, I could not help but feel for the things, all the things that were going wrong around the world. I could not do enough. The darkness is looming now but there will be a sunrise. A new day, a better world tomorrow. And those who are not consumed by the darkness tonight will get to see the good time that tomorrow promises. That's hope.

I live my life in music. Music is like a dream. Like that love and that life, which is now a dream In this dream, called life

That day when he left, he left the only person who ever knew him behind. He decided that the pains of the voyage are his and his alone. But just as he began, his ship wrecked and he drifted on an island. A very beautiful island. He settled in for a life till he can build his ship again and waited for years before he could continue his sail. And one day he started his voyage again to reach the destination, it took him long and a lot was lost but his spirit. He reached his destination only to meet her again, she was there way before him but now he was but a stranger to her. Someone whom she knew ones but no more. I'd like to believe his sacrifices were worthy. I'd like to believe that he won his battles. I'd like to believe that he was at peace. I'd like to believe that somewhere in her heart he was alive. I'd like to believe that he existed not just in stories but in reality...